I asked a friend this morning if it was possible to have an identity crisis at 28. Thankfully, she said yes. I am kind of feeling that way right now. Not lost. I am comfortable in our new surroundings. I've embraced the fact that I'm away from family, but I came to this conclusion last night:
My family knows me better than anyone, but since my family isn't out here it's hard for me to rely on my own knowledge of who I am and who I have become.
I'm sure those of you who even give this blog a second glance are wondering why it's taken a turn toward the "serious" side lately. Normally I post a few pictures about our recent activities, but my other *private* blog that I use as a personal online journal just hasn't been enough. Sometimes it's nice to get feedback. Sometimes it's better to get comments from those you love (yes, I love you dear blog reader) than to constantly have self-doubt circling in your brain.
So, what motivates me? I wish I had pure motives like ALL of you....Love, can you get any better than that? (Thanks for answering such a loaded question) I don't think I've reached love as a motive on a consistent basis yet.
I know what you're thinking, can we all say "Debbie Downer" together? Don't worry, I'm not depressed. Just trying to figure out who I am....at 28!!! Can you imagine what I'll be like when I turn 30?.....Check back here in 637 days and you'll know. ;)
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Tia, I feel like I had a mini mid-20's crisis when I turned 25. I don't know why, but that birthday freaked me out. I think it was because even though I was (and am) at a very good place in life, it wasn't where I had expected to be when I was younger and had imagined life at that age. I don't know if this is like what you are experiencing, but I thought I would share my experience anyway.
I have too many words for this post to leave in a comment. I'll call you later.
Hey Tia - I honestly can say that I've had at least two mid-20s crisis. One at 21 and another at 25, and another at 26. OK, so 3. No one tells you that your 20s are an amazing time of growing and discovering - and that they're painful as well. All I know is that the growth I experienced during and after the "crises" (including moving away, just like you) has been so incredibly rewarding. I really figured out who I was and what I wanted in life.
So, I guess from someone who is more or less on the other side of "living away" and figuring things out on some, good luck. You'll be just fine. Stay true to yourself and that will make you the most happy.
Julia
((((((hugs)))))))
It's hard when you first move away from family. I remember going thru something similiar right after I moved away from home to live in Hawaii.
Growing experiences are never easy but in the end you will become a better person.
Hang in there.
Oh TIA! My soul sista! I totally know what you mean, but having kids brought my mid life crisis on. Hang in there. You do all the right things, and its hard to not be with your family, but I learned to rely on my ward family while living away to get through the tough times. And the best thing is that you have Jared. Although, sometimes that doesn't even matter because sometimes you can be in a room with hundreds of people and feel totally alone.
Get on your knees gal or ask for a blessing....you'll get through it.
Good luck!
Being 28 is different than being 15 or 20 or 25... There are a lot of changes in life and you kind of have to figure things out over and over. Stay close to the Lord he will direct your path. Joanne always tells me that 30s are great because you are still young, you know who you are, don't really worry about your piers so much because life is to busy... good luck.
As I look back over the past 20 years, I appreciate all of the opportunities I've had to grow and 'redefine' myself as I've moved to new places. Sometimes I made lifelong friends in the first week. Other times, I lived in the same place for 4 years and never really felt like I had any good friends.
I think it's awesome that you are consciously making an effort to figure out exactly who you want to be during this season of your life. I think you're terrific!
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